“I spent so much time thinking about what would happen when I got there
that I didn’t spend enough time in the right now. That’s where life was happening.”
– Melissa Etheridge
In my first few years of teaching, I couldn’t wait to be a “good teacher”. I wanted to know everything there was about curriculum, about newest and best strategies, about lingo and processes and students and classroom management….. I thought if I could just attend as much professional learning as possible and immediately implement everything I learned then I would do the best possible things for the students. Then things would be easier and less overwhelming and the students would be excited to come to school each day.
I thought a lot about what things would be like once I got “there”.
Working with new teachers this year, I see and hear that same desire to learn everything. Their determination is energizing and inspiring! They are always so eager to learn, so thoughtful in their interactions with students, and so caring about creating classroom environments that are welcoming and inclusive. They wonder and ask questions about the things they notice about children, school, and learning. Despite the overwhelming list of things to do, they are always striving to learn as much as possible and be the best they can be.
The truth is, that journey never ends. In education, impermanence is the only permanence. There’s always the next challenge – a new grade, a new school, a new teaching partner. There’s changing curriculum expectations and addendums to current curriculum to learn. New research informs strategies; new books and new thinking evolve and inform our learning as educators. Student lived experiences change and who they are differs from year to year and generation to generation. After almost 25 years, I’m still trying to get ‘there’…. And I’m still wondering when I will.
Instead, I want to focus on what is happening right now and shifting my desire from reaching that goal to becoming and evolving as an educator. I still spend a lot of time thinking and learning about curriculum and teaching, but I am spending more time in the ‘now’ – connecting with students and families, finding joyful moments together, and giving myself grace for imperfection that comes with good intentions. I’m doing the best I can with the knowledge I have and I will keep learning more as time marches swiftly on.
In the meantime, I’m going to love our moments together. This may be the last year I see these students before they move to another teacher, grade, or school. I’m treasuring this space where life is happening; making memories together, seeing excitement in moments we share, letting them know that they are important and cared for. I want to be a teacher that is present, that helps them feel like they can take up space and be celebrated for who they are. We spend so much of our time together at school, I want to remember to find joy in the place where life is happening every day.
